Sunday, November 30, 2008

a doozy

I tell ya what...songwriting is hard. You tell yourself the real pros, I mean the real geniuses, it just comes naturally to them. If its not coming to you it means you aren't a real musician. Is this true?? Should I spend the remainder of my career expressing someone else's feelings? Hmm... Or perhaps it just takes a bit of practice and finessing. Each songwriter has their own style. I guess its about finding my style? As I look back at my past attempts, I think I need to be more creative, think outside the box, and be more concise. Actually, I've always had the problem of running on and on. I'm not very good at summarizing, either. I just get caught up in the details...

Oo, I like that last sentence... How can I make that a lyric? Oh yah, I'm not a huge fan of rhyming. I feel like such a nob trying to rhyme. Like I'm writing a poem for my fifth grade valentines cards.

"You're so fine.
I wish you were mine.
You're what I like.
I wanna ride my bike."

Not all that compelling, huh? Ok well, fine, I wasn't really going for provocative, rather than proving a point. If I post a pet song of mine, one of my precious babies, you must promise not to laugh. Although, you may offer constructive criticism. I, on the other hand, may choose to take it, or offer it back to you to shove up your...

Saturday, November 29, 2008

gratitude and the like

Thanksgiving came and went this year. Traditionally, when my family and I sit down to eat, before the prayer is said, we go around the table and say one thing that we are thankful for that year. Well, being somewhere else this year I didn't get the chance. Good thing I've got this nifty blog type deal to show all my gratitude!! Here goes for 2008...

I'm thankful for:
  • Mom for being crazy amounts of supportive, especially when I told her I was moving across the globe. 
  • Cast, crew, and officers of the Maasie for giving me one of the best experiences of my life, and I will never forget those awesome 6 months. (this is kind of an overflow from last year.)
  • Skype. for keeping my relationship alive, haha.
  • The Australian Government for letting me into their country.
  • Mike. 

The list could really go on, but it would just get ridiculous. Even though I wasn't with the fam this year, I did get to chat with them all on skype and that was pretty awesome. I got to see the new baby, and of course all the other nieces and nephews. My family is crazy and I love them. Of course I miss all of my friends, and I can't wait for them all to get their acts together and come visit me....right?!

Thursday, November 20, 2008

spaghetti bolognese

It makes me so envious that everyone always has such interesting things to say in their blogs. 

I don't really have much to say at all. I'm not necessarily upset about this, I just wish I had more things to say. There isn't a lot that I think "I have to write this down for all to read!!" And perhaps other people don't get that feeling either, perhaps they just have the time. I, at the moment, do not have the time. Here I go again, complaining about my job, haha. Its honestly not that bad. I get paid good money to hang out at the gym, haha. Its just not fun. I rephrase that...Its not fun when you're not making sales. Its tedious, boring, and just plain a waste of time. And not just my time, but my managers time. I honestly feel bad that she puts so much time into getting me pumped for the day and keeping my morale high when I couldn't care less. Maybe I'm selfish. Maybe I just hate my job and thats ok. Well, now I'm in a cross roads. Technically, I can only work there for another 2 months. So do I quit now because I hate it? Or do I stick it out for the last two months?? Today I thought to myself, " thats it, I'm turning in my two week notice tomorrow!!" But then I thought about how I'm moving soon and will need a bond. Also, my manager called me into her office and offered to micro manage me so that I can get better at my job. Oh gosh, I feel so awful, haha. What do I do!?!?!

On the other hand, Mike finally figured out how to turn our stove back on and I was able to cook a lovely home cooked dinner!!! We had spaghetti bolognese, (sp?) with salad, and garlic bread. We also had apple pie and ice cream for dessert. We even turned the TV off, put on some music and lit candles. It was so wonderful to finally be able to cook!! I didn't think I would miss cooking, but I really did. I beautiful ending to a not so beautiful day. Mike makes it better. Thats why I keep him around :o)